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Me and M havent talked for two days now. Missing her terribly. Strange, because we fight when we talk, but cant stand staying away from each other. I am checking my Skype list every 2 minutes to see if she is online.

She spent a nice long day with mum and sis. She talked and made the connection. Thats great, because that means she is now one of us for real. The best that could happen. Every one has their own way of liking her. Hearing the comments was a lot of fun and also very satisfying. Yeah, I am marrying Ms. Perfect!

As usual, a tug of war has started off for me. Everyone wants a clone of me. Enticing offers – Large projects, special center, project oversight. Moves closer to the places of action. Hope A has some plans that work!

Sorry guys, there is only one of me to go around!

Talking to M now. She’s having nightmares. Feels so sad. Wish I could help her. Seems like some repressed fears are coming out in her.

She is looking for help in the dream. Is that the subconscious reaching out for help from others? She was alone for a long time, before living together with her loved ones. Now she is alone again. Is this an indication of her loneliness peaking again?

What can one do to help someone so far away???

Well, haven’t been writing a lot on the blog. Just been terribly busy. Running an office is a tough job!
Anyways, things are falling in place now. Seems there will be org changes again in the company again. Will I need to move again? I hope not! I am just settling in now in Shanghai. Just getting to know the people here and making a network. If I move again, all that will be in vain.
However, if I do move, it will be a boost to my career. I don’t know, I am just so confused. Should I take up the offer if it is made to me? Or should I stick to what I have already have got here in Shanghai? I need help!

Well, another 15th August is upon us. Have we really become independent? With our total dependance on foreign technology and our “foren” fixation, we are independent only on paper.

When will we realise what we are doing? Instead of capitalizing on what we have already available in terms of human capital and knowledge, we are looking at building in more inefficiencies in our business environment. By building in quotas and unnecessary checks in the processes and procedures, we ensure that mediocrity is recognised, even encouraged. By possessing a single piece of paper that brands me as a SC / ST / OBC, I can open doors with significantly lower academic qualifications. A couple of notes slipped under the door can open it up faster. I can’t take a ride from one place to another without risking serious injury.

We need a wakeup call. Will that happen soon?

Seeing a lot of activity on the blog. Saw some RSS subscribers and regular comments from Angie, Moti and M. Cool!!

Anyhow, have a lot of things on my plate now. Lets see how it works out.

On my way back from Hangzhou now. I was there for a long service awards presentation. It’s been five long years for me in TCS now. I have had good times and bad, a virtual roller coaster ride. However, life has been good overall.
Heard some good words from some people. It does feel nice to be appreciated. Here’s to another five.
On a related note, met some people who were my proteges and were accepting long service awards. It was a proud moment for me.

Well, if you think love is one smooth ride, boy, are you in for a rude shock. Love has more ups and down than all the mountain ranges in the world combined. Look at me and M. We always keep arguing and fighting, but have a love so deep that there is no way I can describe it in words. It is something you can feel guiding you, making sense of things hitherto too complex to comprehend. In a roller coaster ride of the last few months, I have gone through enough twists and turns to make my head spin. It just has changed my world totally. Maybe that is what love is supposed to do.

Love is an enigma. Too easy to fall into, too difficult to understand, impossible to get out.

I just fell in love with a goluram. She is Sooooo Cute!!!!!

I cant help falling in love with you, goluram!

I had a thoroughly empty day today. Did nothing. The AC guys came, fixed the AC, The ayi came and cleaned the place. Then went to Anantha’s place. Had a nice tea. Shopped at Metro. Showed Dipya around. Talking to M right now. As usual, we fought and loved and made up. I love that girl. Can’t wait to get married!